So here I am. My day is absorbed with resume posting and job searching. This can not be at a worse time as the economy has seen better days. My competition has increased at least ten fold. This is again, humbling.
Prior to job searching, I decided that I must get my priorities together. I must be able to feel confident and not expect too much out of myself. Understanding that just because I am not getting interviews right away does not mean that I am not qualified. My appreciation of my next employer will be my reward. This is the first time in my life that I realized that I do not have to be perfect. I just have to do my best.
I had to admit my faults and realize that I can not control others behavior. I also realized that I can not work as a nurse. Not because I am not capable, but because the industry is so cut throat. It is one of those industries that "eat their young." It is not a positive environment EVER. At least in business, there is "down time" spent on company outings, lunch with co-workers, etc. This break from stress and demands is a necessity as a human.
As I stated in my previous post, I do not regret getting my degree in nursing. It was a very growing experience. I merely regret not being realistic about my career and adjusting it to my life.
I know that I will find a job. It may take a month, a year, or a decade. However, when it comes, I will LOVE it. I mean I will truly appreciate it for the opportunity that it is. I will take the good with the bad, the ups and the downs. In the end, I will LOVE it!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
My Career Path
This time last year I had just graduated from Nursing School and was getting ready for the NCLEX test to be an LPN. After I passed the state boards, I was excited about my future.
I began applying for jobs. This process was disappointing. I guess I had never realized how hard it would be to find a job after graduation.
After dozens of applications sent, I posted my resume on monster.com. It wasn't very long before I got a call about an interview. However, it was not in nursing. I was being interviewed for an administrative assistant position. My five years of experience had peaked someones interest. Being open minded, I went to the interview. I was so excited after the position was offered to me.
However, I quickly poisoned the excitement with my guilt of leaving my children and how hard I had worked to become a nurse not to work as one. Due to a lack of support system and confidence, I resigned. I felt that I would only disappoint my employer. With great sadness, I left.
So then I began to look for a part time nursing position so I could be at home more and would be able to make a difference as a nurse.
Over the past 7 months I have grown so much because of the decision I made and suffering the consequences of my bad choices.
It is hard to admit when you make a mistake. It is even harder to get back on your feet afterward.
I had to realize that leaving my job was not the only mistake I made. Maybe I should have never went to nursing school to begin with. I can not be too hard on myself for this because I did learn a lot during my three struggle to graduate. I realized that there is such a thing as "taking on too much". I also learned that excuses do not get you anywhere. Finally, I learned that even if you work hard at something, success is not guaranteed.
All in all my experience humbled me greatly. Although I have a lot of talents and experience, I must realize that in the end I a human being. I am not some superhero capable of squeezing more than 24 hours out of a day.
I began applying for jobs. This process was disappointing. I guess I had never realized how hard it would be to find a job after graduation.
After dozens of applications sent, I posted my resume on monster.com. It wasn't very long before I got a call about an interview. However, it was not in nursing. I was being interviewed for an administrative assistant position. My five years of experience had peaked someones interest. Being open minded, I went to the interview. I was so excited after the position was offered to me.
However, I quickly poisoned the excitement with my guilt of leaving my children and how hard I had worked to become a nurse not to work as one. Due to a lack of support system and confidence, I resigned. I felt that I would only disappoint my employer. With great sadness, I left.
So then I began to look for a part time nursing position so I could be at home more and would be able to make a difference as a nurse.
Over the past 7 months I have grown so much because of the decision I made and suffering the consequences of my bad choices.
It is hard to admit when you make a mistake. It is even harder to get back on your feet afterward.
I had to realize that leaving my job was not the only mistake I made. Maybe I should have never went to nursing school to begin with. I can not be too hard on myself for this because I did learn a lot during my three struggle to graduate. I realized that there is such a thing as "taking on too much". I also learned that excuses do not get you anywhere. Finally, I learned that even if you work hard at something, success is not guaranteed.
All in all my experience humbled me greatly. Although I have a lot of talents and experience, I must realize that in the end I a human being. I am not some superhero capable of squeezing more than 24 hours out of a day.
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